last night was the most sweetest dream of my life.. because i dream with my crush in ericsson named Maria Sarah Jane Doctor, she was from HR department and maybe a year a head of me.. she's fair complection, long hair, chinita, witty, sexy and so cute.. 5'2" of height 52kg of weight.

Ok here it goes.. Its just a simple but sweet for me and short scene.. I cant recall everything but i will discuss what remains and what happened.

So im with her to a mall i didnt know what mall it is but i know everytime in my dream its the same mall i go to. (weird huh). So were together holding hands and im looking at her we both smilling and she's so beautiful like she's the most beautiful girl in the world. I know something we talk about together i just cant recall. We date that day we both look so happy i dont know but every time we look each other its like damn she everything to me and i want to be with her for the rest of my life. hehe (Angel dont get mad its just a dream). Then while we walking hahaha i saw Andrea and Occy together dating so we talk and im nervous because maybe Andrea say something to her sister Frances that im dating with someone else. But i dont know my dream still continue.. so now were in group date with Andrea's partner. We still in holds hand with Maria Sarah Jane Doctor. And after that outside the mall we saw her daddy in a car and her dad wants Maria Sarah Jane Doctor to come home with him. Ofcourse i dont know what to do so my date just end that part. So thats the last scene i remember. Thats all :)

I know how you feel when you dream of your crush dont you.. its like the feeling that you are really with her and like you won in a lottery game.. and when you wake up you just smile and say to your self oh my god i hope it really happen in true to life. But unfortunately its just a dream but atleast you have something in mind that you knew in your self that one day in your dream she's with you.. :)

 She's in the right side. :)

Its 6days ago from our monthsary.. and because im busy that day i forgot to do this sorry :)
i want to make it up to you but were in our huff days.. but i must think of a solution to overcome and end this.. maybe later when i get back home i will fix this and i will give you a surprise gift just to hope that it will ease our huff days. Oh.. it just flash in my mind.. i remember the words you say to me but because im so sleepy i didnt listen to well but instead i go to sleep im sorry. so here it is.. i sink in in my mind just now that how lucky i am to have you in my life and sorry for last night because i take you for granted.. im bad because i do this all the time.. maybe because i am really selfish.. sorry.. i didnt mean to do that.. its just that im tired and sleepy.. but today i will make it up to you and if necessary i will date you just to show you that you mean a lot to me because my life is lonely and miserable without you.. I love you! again Happy monthsary! mwah!:)

I know something is wrong.. i dont know if it is me or her.. last night i felt this feeling and i dont know if i like it or even if it is really me.. or im just tired or something happen to her that i dont know yet.. but maybe this is only our huff days.. Well i hope that end soon, because i makes me feel so guilty because of my doing things to her. I know she huff at me and im sorry for that i did... Now i really believe that when there are days of laughness and happiness for an instant the huff and sadness really came out at the day you never expect. Angel im sorry im bad and i hope we get back so soon. I love you.

The greatest gift I ever had Came from God, and I call him Dad!

Since that day everything is change.. its like the whole world to me is different.. i know its 4years after that day but i still remember everything of it.. i think i will just keep it in my heart and to my mind. Daddy i will forever miss you.. i didn't say this before to you but again i will say it even for the last heart beat of my heart.. Daddy i miss you so much! I love you! i will always pray for you and i will forever your good son.

Sorry to hear about the loss of your father.. I am sorry i cant go back home yet due to my work and responsibility here in manila... but i promise i will call u at the day i went back home.

I know you for a very long time, we have so many stuff in life that we don’t really understand, for the fact that we never get along together.. we have so many discrepancies, so many hesitations, questions and doubt not only for our relationship, but as well as within our self.. but no matter what it takes, for our long relationship, i learned to love u so deep.. learned to forgive you when u crashed my heart.. learned to accept what you’d done.. learned to dream about future with you.. learned to sacrifice my pride, learned to smile when I’m sad, to sleep w/ sadness in my heart and hope that tomorrow everything’s will be alright.. to pray that you’ll not gonna say goodbye.. to hope that whatever argument were having, you’re still there, holding on.. to wish the impossible thing in life.. i learned to feel the true love.. but all of those, i never learned how to love you less in every waking day of my life.. thank you so much Angel for letting me feel those kinds.. Happy Monthsary and i wish us both a happy life and strong relationship together.. and more months and years to come with fulfillment and harmony together.. i love you so much Angel and will love you more in every waking day of my life.. and i am so sorry for keeping this site secret for you for a long time and i am so sorry for all those aches and disappointments I’d done.. and thank you so much for everything my beloved..  Again Happy 98th Monthsary! I love you always - Justin :)

After 25days of hard work, early waking up and stressing traffic, this day has come because its my first pay day woooo its 5,045.83 but ofcourse the deduction has been included... I was rated 550 php a day so for monthly its 11,000 php a month. First time first i compute my daily expenses and minus to my salary and the sum of it will be my shopping money hehe.. i love shopping with my gf because she was like a supervisor in terms of choosing my clothes hehe. Dont get mad Frances mis u hehe.. I bought a new slipper its Ipanema brazil type flag, yellow swelas and blue strap it cost 895 php. And the day after we bought 2 coach polo shirt it cost 1,240 php it fits me very well and i really like it. But after that i remember my sister wants me to buy her an ipad shuffle.. mmmp i know she sad for not buying her that gadget but this month i will :) And for my remaining money i will spend it for my daily expenses like food and travel fare. And i cant wait to get my 2nd salary to bought new shoe hehe. And after i bought that i will just focus on saving it all to our atm joint account.

After a month i got work in BDO but i was under by agency the contract was for 5months only.. New friends came along. Things go smoothly and ended cool.

Then i went back home in our province to take a very long vacation hehehe.. time pass and i was stanby by almost 3months. Then after i decide to go back in manila to get employed again, because i feel like getting older everyday i just relax in our province.

Then im here again now have a new great job here in Ericcson Inc. I work here as AP administrator but again i was under by agency for 3months contract but i think this one is different from the first. Because of nice compensation and benefits. Even i takes a long travel to get in taguig i still accept the job. And i hope i became their new regular employee :)

Its was been like a rollercoster.. Things always turn out the way it should be.. So many things happen between the last date to present date.. I will just highlight the event that happen clearly in my mind.

ahh ok now i remember.. May 5, 2009 me and my lola went to a clinic near in our place.. and we talk to the doctor and have some consultation but after that the doctor told us that my lola has a diabetic decease so i was so worried because the day i bought my lola at the clinic to be checkup that she already have a brushes in her left foot. Also the doctor say that he will observe on my lola's condition and go back after 3days. And we go back after the said day and the doctor was shock that my lola's condition was being already infected by the desease so the doctor advise us to go to the nearest hospital with the referal letter. Sampaloc hospital, then we go there that day and visit the doctor having the referal letter. And then the doctor checkup my lola and the doctor say that the left foot of my lola should be amputate because of the uprising diabetic decease. By that day my lola begging not to be amputate her left foot and i was pity in my lolas condition but ofcourse i wont let my lola recognize my sadness. But still the doctor want the operation to be happen for the sake of my lola's health. Then after that we went home. And i text Mamy & Tito Ric about my lola's condition and they agreed to the doctor. Then i my self with lola went to hospital for my lola admition and to start the operation.. The preparation takes long because the doctor wants my lola is in a very good condition and also to make the operation goes smoothly, days and nights pass i stay beside my lola up to the day the operation start. To make the story short operation been a success and we take home my lola and to make recovery. 18months after the operation she recovered. But after 1month from the said months of recovery my lola been so weak all of the sudden then at that night..... A ring comes from lea phone and i answer and shock... and i cry.. its like everything falls apart in my body, spirit and heart. And things flashback up to the day i was a little boy carried and comporting by my lola.. To make the story short my lola died and time past i recover but i still miss her so much.. there is no other word can describe how much sweet and kind my lola has been.. i will always miss you.. i love you nanay.

Hello, its about time.. after 2 years haha i still remember the fisrt day i work in this site haha (remenisce).. ok i just start again where the last date post end.

whew... this is the first time i encounter java programming... it was real confusing to me...

Admiring you every minute of the day wouldn’t be very sincere of us, and similar to the words “I love you,” saying “You’re beautiful,” has more meaning when it’s blurted out unexpectedly. Yup, it’s when you least expect it: I’ll steal a glance, smile when you complain about how ugly you look today, you tuck a lock of hair behind your ear, this is my own little way of expressing a lot of admiration.

History was never the one of my best subjects, so I hope you understand when I forget our “month-saries,” or where or how we first met. But I have our own special moments with you that are worth remembering in our own ways, like having an awesome meal together at moa remember at chicken inasal were laughing because I joke you that you have rice in you’re cheek when you eat, were like actor and actresses in a real funny movie. I may not remember what you were wearing on our first date, but I do remember that you looked great. And that I love you so much that matter most.

March24 - Edey, Junar and I went to manila

 

March27 - Benjo, Anton, Yom, Patrick and Kriston came to my place. Also Edey, Cd, and Junar came. We skate, we get drunk and we sleep. A day before our goal came to reality.

 

March28 – The day our waits over.At the very first time we all saw and played a certified skate park, all obstacle are fix the and half pipe at perfectly fit for the pro. But unfortunately my headache strikes me that stop me for skate for that day. Now here we are at the port skate park featuring pro is Chris haslam, cupper etc. that was the first time I saw a proskater skate it amaze me how he execute all his tricks effortless he is a great pro a beardy man. It almost 6pm we went home and decide to shop our remaining time. Benjo, Anton, Patrick and I start to shop at center point all of us buy our own stuff, we ate and get home. 1am march29 4hours left before we leave manila. We standby outside my place we drink Rc cola and have some conversation. On the middle of our arguments there’s a motorcycle and a white car I notice that it was the curfew scouting around metro manila, we shock they stop on our spot and one of the Tanod ask Anton he say’s “ ilang taon kana otoy?” Anton response in a split seconds and says “18 po” then the tonod say “ ahh ocge umuwe na kayu bawal n tao sa labas”.balercrew says “ ocge po paxenxa na” and we get inside our house and laughs each other hahaha an experience to be treasure.

 

To make the story short memories are worth keeping basta sama sama msaya. We slept and leave manila by that day.

 

Now back to our own life skate skate parin shot shot plage where ever the happenings come dun din kme.

A best of friends I ever had

 

A friendship made by our own interest

 

A real friend who’s says your negative side

 

An everlasting relationship that never let you down

 

And a friendship that will last forever…

There’s no such thing as a destiny, we have will of our own, it only determines who comes into our lives but it’s the heart that determine who says I choose you. Just like what my friend said that it’s better to die early with full satisfy of your life on my own will. Than to suffer the rest of your life waiting for your destiny so real?

A day before everything start to gone,

 

It was almost a year ½ when all their problems come to an end,

 

Story starts with a perfectly guy loved someone at the wrong time and the wrong person,

 

We skaters gather to comfort him and that night we decide to be with him all-night and get drunk. By that way we know he can tell everything and he all out his feeling.

 

Then.......

 

He stop talking and bow his head and I notice a tear fall on his face. And he tell everything what really happen, he cried for every single word he say, It was my 2^nd time I saw my friend shed in tears and yelling about his girl name.

 I can feel he was so hurt really HURT. For every word and every cry he made was a real pain for us. Luckily Greg was there he almost a big brother for all of us, he comfort Benjo and make him realize that its not the end of the world for him, that he just lost his girl but your friends will never be. I was sit beside him but I can’t say a word because I can’t take it his feelings and sadness making me cry. I know all of us felt the same way. 2hrs of comforting and Benjo stop crying and start to listen to all we advice and share. And an hour of talking and sharing of experience. That’s the end of our session. And he set another shot this coming Friday a final session about his problem a goodbye session. for his Ex.

 

Lesson… Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow; we must fail in order to know. We must lose in order to gain. Some lessons are learned well only through pain.